It all began one day, I was reading the local paper, The Orange Co. News, and I came across the personals section. There I saw a small add that said “is the Watchtower telling you the truth? And there was also a phone number that you could call. That add peaked my interest, I thought that is exactly what I had been struggling with? The question I had asked and did not have an answer and had no idea where to go and who to ask to get the answers, and yet there it was, an open door had been made available to me. However two different thoughts came over me, the first was did someone really have the information I was looking for? After all someone had taken the time to list that particular add, what could they possibly know? what information could they provide me to show that the Watchtower did not have the truth. The second thought was, could this be a trap set by the Watchtower Org. to trap individuals like me, questioning the truthfulness of the Watchtower Society. Would I have the courage to challenge God’s Prophet for our time? I have to confess I did hesitate for a period of time, but those feelings did not go away, would I go forward in my search on the origin and early teachings of the Watchtower Organization? I think deep down I wanted to be proven wrong, after all I had invested a good portion of my life into this Organization; I did not want to wake up one day and discover it was all for naught. After a period of time had passed, I finally cautiously decided to call the phone number listed on the add, to my surprise a young voice answered the phone and asked for mom to come to the phone. The person on the line said her name was Heidi and asked the reason for my call. Hesitantly I said I was calling about the add in the Orange Co. news that referred to the Watchtower. We spoke for a while and then she asked me to visit her and her husband as they had a vast library of early Watchtower publications and I could avail myself of them. My suspicious mind kept telling me that the Watchtower was behind this, so driving to their home in Irvine I kept looking in my rear view mirror making sure that no one was following me. I set in front of their house for quite a while thinking about what I was about to do. Would this cost me my position as elder? The respect of all my fellow witnesses? What would Annette say if she knew what I was about to do? I was very aware of the consequences of just questioning the Watchtower, let alone contacting individuals that could speak against the Watchtower. Finally I decided I had come this far in this, I will just get the information I was looking for and leave, and I was sure that would be the end of it.
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